It's really hard for me to fathom the thoughts that I was having during the hardest days, when I was completely alone for weeks on end caring for my insane mother.
Respite saved us.
Two days in a row helps me because I can do things that I enjoy, things that feed my soul and create a sense of well being. Respite causes me to sing and hum tunes, it makes me feel so good that I laugh. I can handle Care Giving now, it's easier because I know that I can get away and recharge.
Yesterday was a great day for me. I had bought 25 pounds of B rated tomatoes for 12 dollars from my favorite farm stand. Tomatoes that I blanched, skinned, cored and slowly cooked in my crock pot in the morning before I left for some fun. Dinner was Eggplant rolls with a 3 cheese stuffing. The fresh tomato sauce gave dinner the taste of summer, flavor that only comes with fresh picked tomatoes.
I spent my day with my new best friend, she made me cry, however the tears that I shed were different than those from the past few years, these tears were tears of relief. I have a friend. I have a family. I have an awesome husband. I have found the silver lining in the clouds of life... family and friends!