27 January 2012
Letters To My Family
I've been sorting and organizing all of my mom's papers; files that date back as far as 1958 when my parents bought their home.
Today, I found an envelope in my mom's hand writing dated February 25, 2003. Inside were letters that my mom wrote to me, my siblings, my Aunt Jay, her brother and sister (now deceased) and my two oldest nephews.
Hands shaking, I opened the envelope.
Feb 25, 2003 - 3AM
I just had a dream Eddie came to me. He looked angry and was pointing to me. It woke me up. I think he meant for me to take better care of myself.
Just in case, I want you to find who my beneficiary is on my SBLI and change it to you. Also, my bank book at BCU. And change name on my car to yours.
I don't want to be a burden to you. I know you can make it on your own.
To Donna, 2/25/3
Help Susan as much as you can. I know your the strongest. Pray for me.
Take care of Amy and Scott. I love them both and they will make you proud.
Make sure Brad takes better care of himself.
Love you all,
To Marty, 2/25/3
Take care of Eileen and Mother. Don't forget yourself also. Health is very important. I hope you will always be happy. I think of you often and pray for you.
Help Susan if she needs you.
Love and kisses,
To Ann and Steve,
Wish I could of seen you both. I'm not well and I don't want you to worry.
See if you can get to see John Edward and I'll be able to send you a message from the other side.
Love you both and I know I can count on you to help Susan through this ordeal.
Thank you for all your prayers through the years. Sorry I won;t be able to take you out. I know you will be OK. You've always been their for me and I want you to know how I appreciate you. God will listen to you so ask him and He will help you.
You have made it possible for me to come this far by your prayers.
Your Sister in Law,
To Joe and Andy, 2/25/3
Haven't got to see you much lately and I want you both to know how proud I am of the both of you.
Time is precious so don't waste it. Take care of your health, it is most important. Get to see your mother as often as you can.
Joe take care of Melinda, she is a wonderful girl.
Andy I will be watching your progress from above.
Love you all,
To Flo and Al, 2/25/3
Sorry I was unable to see you. If I get past this feeling, I'll come to see you both. I wish I was able to see you more often. I will pray for you. Don't be sad. I will be with my family who has crossed over already.
Take care of yourself and keep in better shape than I did.
Love you both,
Your sister Jo.
(** Flo passed in 2006, Al passed in 2011 - neither got to see this note.)
To Whom it may concern,
If I forgot to say bye to someone I'm sorry. My memory is slowly dying.
I give Susan all my assets if I have any left, and don't forget my Walmart Stock.
I give Susan the right to turn off any life support system if I have any.
(signed her name)
Today, mom is still alive in a nursing home. She has declined a lot since 2003 when she wrote these notes to all of us.
Finding these letters were bitter sweet.
Seeing my mom's handwriting, so pretty and neat made me miss the days when we could carry a meaningful conversation. I miss my mom's advice. I miss her telling me that everything is going to be OK.
My mom, she has always loved her family and we will always love her!