|Shopping with Ma at Whole Foods|
October 28, 2011
Mom's got kidney disease, she's had it for years because she didn't manage her blood sugar and blood pressure. I know I'm not a doctor, but I think Mom's kidneys are beginning to fail. I checked the symptoms of Renal Failure ; Mom's got several symptoms. Will she fall into a coma like my friend Aggie who died of kidney failure?
I like to believe that I'm ready for Mom to die, but am I? It's inevitable, mom will die... I have to be ready!
Seeing her leaning to the right, hanging over the side of her chair, fixated on hallucinations she sees on the floor, not able to communicate; her end appears to be closer than ever.
Mom's latest decline, happened in a blink of an eye. Like a shot, similar to when Lewy first arrived into our lives nearly four years ago, mom's condition has changed dramatically.
Two weeks ago, she was walking, talking, laughing and enjoying her babies. Truly precious moments that warmed my heart.
We made the best of the life we had to live with Lewy,what other option did we have? The struggles and challenges were numerous, but the laughter and joy we were able to create, helped get us through the tough days.
The waiting is the hardest part of this journey with my mom and Lewy. Waiting for the end and watching, I find myself praying for a peaceful end for Mom.